The Cruel Torture Of Unrequited Love Poem by Holly Robinson

I have cried so long, the blood in my veins is now dry.
I have felt so deep a sadness, I cannot remember I ever did smile.
I have screamed so loud in pain and anger, I am deaf though my head is still ringing.
I have become so hopeless, I scoff at the new day and its unwelcome light of dawn.
I have felt so deep of regrets, I live trapped in my past and avoid facing the future.
I have longed to feel loved so much, but have wasted so much time on futile attempts for your attention.
I have suffered through countless broken hearts, and now my soul is shattering and killing what little spirit remains.

Yet, no matter how much I try,
how loud I scream,
how many tears I shed,
how hard I wish,
how long I wait,
how far I fall,
how many regrets I feel,
how lost I am,
or how hopeless I become;

I still wait in vain for the day you notice I'm here,
I have been waiting all along.
Waiting for you, certain you'll end this torture.
Waiting, unnoticed, here by your side.
Waiting, dying slowly, yet I wait here, unmoving.
Here by your side I sit here, just waiting.
I've been here for so long.

(August 8,2004)