The Long Drawn Out Winding Poem 'i Give You My Humble Gratitude For Reading It All' Poem by James Darwin Smith II

 
The long drawn out winding poem "I give you my humble gratitude for reading it all"






A grain of frozen salt
Packed in tightly
In the center
Exposed
Crowded
Yet, feeling all alone



Sky dreaming
Well beyond the clouds
Ascending and ascending
Higher and higher
Shining brighter and brighter
Transcending into another dimension
In a parallel universe's center of attention
Transforming above and beyond
Enigmatically woven
By the essence
A magical sense
Of a purpose
Etched in gloriously flawing form



Star soul arrival
Searching for a brand new home
A destination unlike anything ever imagined
Complexing to the masses
Yet, a paradox that was already here
Even before I felt scorned
By an earthly spiral devoid



No more judgements
Never feeling lesser again
Death defying thoughts
As this spirit roams freely
Upon this very fate's newfound preference
Faith reached to the highest peak of consensual
Defying any limits of all normal dulling scorn



Sacred pinnacle ventured
Fearless and wondering
Whimsical excursion
Evolving into the truest self
Of a tribulation upon rogue destinations
A multitude of parallels
Untouched and ready to be explored




A grain of frozen salt, melting
Finally able to escape
With haste
Quickly
Diligently
Profoundly
Ever so gracefully
Captured in endless picture
Much bigger than ever known before


Starring in the role
Of something important
Profound
Traveling to the great beyond
Of a gratitude felt in a force
That strives to always be strong






Grateful
As each universe sees me
In this truest of form
As I keep fighting to live on
Battling on
Till I have no more self-deathly defeats to mourn
Doing the things I was born to do
As fate has always tried knocking these walls
Opening up this door to my ever so earnest
Heartfelt abode




I was never supposed to be limited
Only of earth via this humanity's quest
Was always destined to go back
To the stars
Upon this synchrony spirit
Planetary life skipping
To each perspective
Upon a trivial rebirth
Personally celebrated
In the finer self of being self-adorned






As I find out now
All my deaths were just metaphors
Suicide was never supposed to be
My ending remorse
But the beginning of a new life
Rebuilding itself
To its strongest of form
Endured allotted in this most




If you know who I really am
Then you know where I truly belong
Disabled by this human confliction
As this soul
Wants the freedom
Of a vast unconditional love




Never will I be
Just a picture of the skin's make pretend
Or a trend on a fixated mind's descend
Just that I never want to feel this awkward
This lost
Ever again




Will I be a never fading star staying reborn?
Or will fate limit these dreams yet again?




I just want to feel anew
Never being stuck forgotten
In life's frozen remorse
Living peaceful in a dimension
Where love is beyond flesh
Unconditional upon the star's rejoice






I just want to be universally loved
Even if it were to take me way off course
It would be something deeply felt
Within these dreams
Where the universe coaches this spirit
With the beauty of its haunting
Yet ethereal medicating voice




I want to be freed
Into other grains of sand
Unified shapeshifting into a heart
Celebrating the many different aspects
Of an all-powerful undisputed love




If you showed me
The map to your heart
Where do you think I truly belong?
Not the polar regions of a hope regressed
Or was that the plan all along?




After everything
Will keep thawing on?
Or will I be frozen yet again and left alone?




The worst death one keeps suffering
Is being taken for granted
In a never ending cycle
Like an over treading withering course
A cosmic storm
Full of Jetsam ambitions
Dissipating into a quicksand of remorse




Who wants to be my twin star of shining euphoria?
Shooting off beyond our own control
Never knowing where we will go
As the unknown gives us the power
To go to destinations beyond our wildest forms








Maybe I will be more than ever expected
When I finally hear yes
Way more than I have ever heard the word no
One just never knows
Perhaps, this is a bet taken for sure
The tiny spec of salt
Was really
A tiny mere spec of a star
Waiting to grow beyond expectations
Shooting beyond anything ever seen before
Never ever seeing false conclusions again






Here I am
Saluting this eccentric
Yet personal proclamation
Being of alien incarnation
Different adaptation
But that is something
I am blessed with
No matter how lonely
Things may be at the time
When all seems to slow down






This grain of salt
Was the coup de grace
Wounded on this punctured living
Yet, little did time know
It grew into something bigger
Stronger, making me better
In the beyond here on after




In the end
And beyond
I am just me
Peaceful
In my own parallel universes
Or does a storm warrant a bought with love?




I own not much
But the things I cherish the most
Where no value, no flesh
Could ever comprehend
And if this makes no sense
To the limited thinker
Then I suppose I have done my job
In the greatest threshold of many things to come




I may not live like most
Or supposedly like society wants
Maybe some think of me as dumb
But I would rather be an idiot
Than live a life trending
On a of make pretend




Those whom have doubted me
Perhaps even those whom do to this day
I love them
For they give me a purpose
In this testing ample life lived
Always trying to go beyond my worst
And all of my best


I am the crasher of clichés
The pun terrestrial
Living on hope for future golden days
Adjusting to ever self-educated phase
The all natural longevity
Of whom I am as a whole
If that makes no sense at all




I am an alchemist for better days
Starting with a frozen grain of salt
Adding each preservative
From every perseverance from within
Shining into a star
Shooting beyond
Where I never knew existed before




And even then
I know there will be doubt
Even if everything was proven
People want to live flat
Than to come full circle
Digging shallow within themselves
Ignoring each universes story
Only going by what
They have been so blindly told




I am not ugly
Nor beautiful
I am just all soul
With a heart
That gives me guidance
On where I will end up
Upon my own journey
That first started
When everything started
Becoming cold




I need the cold
To one day cherish the warmth
As this eternal endurance
Travels onward
Into realms I never knew existed before




Is this too much?
Perhaps it should be more




I proudly live life
On my own accord
Can those who judge harshly say that?
I think not




How is this for a long and windy abode?
I strive to always shine beyond the norm


So who is with me?
Let's go!


Yet, I will still do this
Even if I was all alone




Beyond our world
Time ceases to exist
The future is the past
And everything is all unknown




But that is the beauty
Of living life
In the cold
Upon the welcoming of the warmth




And who knows
Upon this star
A sun shall finally be born
To do even better
Than I have ever done before




Onward everything shall go!
Beyond the simplicity of the flow
Where complexity stands on its own




Even I never want to comprehend this ever again


To be always be in awe is my goal
Tired of explaining everything


Oh, How I love the unknown
So many places to go
Such sites to see
Sights of peripheral appeasement




And in the end
All I have to do
Is first believe in, me








And the rest will move forward
This I know for sure!




I believe in me!




Now how is that for an epiphany?
Do you any method of any of this meaning?
Good, me neither
I just believe in me
Someway, Somehow
This will stay
And then I will finally be free




Do you believe in me?