The Suicide Club Poem by Matthew Holloway

I'm a card carrying member now
Of a not so exclusive club
Most wouldn't care to join
The suicide club
For survivors and the unfortunate
Who are no longer with us
Who couldn't bare the load
The weight of life and days
The memories and emotion
I've been beside you all
Unwilling to continue
Face another horror
Some call us cowards
They fail to understand
For us it became
There was no other way out
We did not think rationally
Emotions overwhelmed
It took it's coin
We paid it's price
Offer up our life
Survivors carry guilt
And sorrow sits on the grave
It's a lifetime membership now
And what would we expect
Of the price we paid