Time Heals Poem by Vinaya Joseph

Days became weeks,
Weeks became months,
And gradually months turned into years…
I wondered,
God, what did I learn over the years?

What did my relationships teach me?
Each one was special,
Was love a mirage?
An arrangement,
An adjustment between two people…
I truly don’t know…

I wondered,
What lessons my heart learnt?
That it was best to invest in self,
Rather than waste your time on others…

It is a far greater grief,
To have a man’s love,
And then lose it,
For me,
Memory lingers,
I befriended pain in the process,
It became an integral part of my life,
Inherent to me…

Wish If I could go back in time,
And erase the whole experience,
Had I never met some,
I would not have to
Go through so much of hurt,
Was the experience worth it?
I truly don’t know…
It kind of left me,
An outcast in my own eyes

Hard to put my past behind me,
But it always intrudes into my present,
Everyday is a silent struggle
Quiet yet turbulent,
Tough to explain

But...

Looking back now,
I don’t blame anyone,
I am the writer of my own fate,
I let others exploit my innocence,
I was emotionally weak then,
And that’s where I went wrong…

Did bitter experiences,
Make me a better human?
A sort of discovering
My latent strengths,
Did destiny stimulate?
A burning passion in me
To improve myself,

Did it transform?
The breeze into a tempest,
Did it turn?
A dull fable into a masterpiece,
I guess,
It helped me,
To emancipate myself,
From the shackles of relations…