To Whom It May Concern; Poem by Bilal Raja

Haunting ring of rejection is again
Shivering in the sombre sound of silence
Why do you not answer?
Do you hate me? Do you hate me?

Love Unrequited is my oldest friend
She has shaped my thoughts and feelings,
Becoming an integral part of me.
True friends are rare, but She is always there.

My insecurities won’t let go of my inhibitions
I can’t be me around you, open or real
Not willing to risk our friendship on a no go
I will never tell her, she will never know

Seeking comfort in the familiarity of nothingness
Trapped in a self deprecating sense of self.
The Devil and God live within me
Peace fails to exist.

I see no escape route, no where to leave
I feel my time is drawing close
If God loves me, he won’t mind having me
No one knows me and no one will miss me

So to this lonely life I bid farewell,
If you’re listening, hear my cry;
I’m free and all yours.
Goodbye.