Ugh Poem by brandon norseth

All I've ever wanted is you, but since that seems impossible i just will have to sit and wither with the flowers. like a dead winter i feel cold and isolated, but that dosent stop people from hurting me so badly my veins clog with hurt. i would rather burn a thousand times that suffer the loss of you in my life. i cant imagine being perfect because the cracks in my life are to big to conceal. sometimes i pretend that i'm happy but when it comes down to it you have to come back to real life sometime except i don't want to because im not strong enough to deal with all the pain of life, so i escape to a place in my mind where i appear happy, strong, elegant, and collected. someones gotta stay strong otherwise who will be? now the question is who gives me a break and takes my place? what about me? i want a break so i can feel safe from emotional damage and say how i truly feel. But life's not fair so i will have to deal with the hand i'm dealt.