Unreturned Favors Poem by Samantha Jenks

You still mean everything to me, but the pictures fade I’m left with a memory.
Why couldn’t we make this work, disappear all my thoughts that have grown to hurt.
I’m suffocating in my world I’ve chosen, the grip on my neck feels like it’s frozen.
My room seems so empty so so bare, nothing’s the same without you here.
My eyes are stinging from the tears I made.
I’m the one who ended it but I just can't wish you away.
I’m wasting time losing breath, I can still feel you breathing on my neck
Your scent fills my air and its captivating my lungs, you face fills my head clouding my dreams.
I’m wishing of, dreaming to, go back to the times when all I need was you.
Now I’m trying to move on, but when I’m with her all I’m going to think of is you.
Days I wish she never existed but maybe it was a sign to show the end of fate, our end of time.
I don’t know how long I could go knowing our love is a lie.
If letting you go is what I have to do for you to be happy I’ll do it,100 times over.
I wish you well and all that you come to be.
I’ve always wanted your best but I realized that will never be next to me.
I’ll be there for you until the end of time.
Because in my heart and in my head you’ll always be the one girl for whose living I would die.