Up Then Down Poem by Marilyn Jean

Now three years
What with the poems?
I wrote these?
None could ever
Understand
Unless mad
Maybe not even that
Up then down
Blue all the way through
Here it is
So deeply true
Done this to myself
Dragged you unaware
Into most of these
It swallowed me crying
Bringing little relief
Is it shame after all?
So very late?
Or me down tonight
Feeling on my knees
Then up again tomorrow
Let see, I am just weird
Up, up and crash down
But who could know?
So, later much later
As all finally rest in dust
I will still hide here
You trapped in with me
Between these pages
"Up then down"
I have just named it
Us, you and me