Vicious Cycle Poem by Sven Rhoads

I cant silence all the screaming going on inside
Every night my dreams are filled with suicide
I'm bleeding myself so dry for the nothing I gain
My heart is too tired to keep up a hopeless beat
I cant seem to climb out of this deepening abyss
When every flavor I taste is this rotten kiss
I'm dying everyday just so I can never see the end
My soul is so sick that I cannot accept this life

I dont know what else to do to pull myself out
This world seems to have put the odds against me
Now that my mind has been poisoned with doubt
The vicious cycle seems it shall always be

I cant untie the knot that has become my anatomy
Slipping around my throat until nothing is left of me
I'm tearing myself into pieces just trying to get away
My life just doesnt seem to want to let me leave
I cannot accept existing in a state of eternal hating
Too many years slipped away from the constant waiting
I'm left here alone with nothing left to give of me
My veins are hollow and running completely dry

I dont understand why nothing ever seems to be enough
All the sacrifice, the blood and tears, is it all in vain
I dont understand in the end why I'm just not good enough
Unjudging, open heart and mind, just to be void of love

It never seems to change
So I'll suffer just to feel alive
Until I've been run into the ground
It's become the normal way
So I'll just walk into the sunset
Until I've completely just faded to memory