When I Am Gone Poem by bikram baniya

they see me smiling n laughing, all they see is happy me.
but the loneliness i feel have reached the ultimate degree.
i am caught in the whirlpool, no matter how hard i try i cant escape.
i dug a hole to run but i didn't realize i was digging my own grave.
u were never there for me, but i hope u will come on my funeral.
bring a bouquet for my dead body and show ur crocodile tear.
i will be happy when i die, for all the sorrows i wont have anymore.
i left everything for you n came to u n then u closed the door.
for the countless nights of pain, tears and grief all u had to say was sorry.
what i was like and what i have become, not a matter for which u have to worry.
go and stay with ur loved once coz to you they mean a world.
everything is crystal clear but u prefer to stay blurred.