When I Dont Know What To Do............. Poem by lalitha iyer

I dont know what to do;
I am reduced to nothing
my aims are no more sound
my goals dont bound
I am just wondering
my body within shivering

my senses devalued
my passions crystallized
my sentiments criticized
my ideas centrifugalized

good and bad
sabotaged
all goods are cowardish
all bads are gold medalists

where is God?
playing hide and seek
or seeking me
with as much vigour
as I seek him

may be in Crores
of Galaxies
he is staying
in one
and seeking from the other end
and I from this end

all physical nuditites
echoing stupidity
and mocking at me
The entire Galaxies
are budding in my inner self
I am shivering
I am quivering
I am trembling
I am lost, dont know
what to do
all tangibilities
killing me from within
about to burst
about to worst
I am like the Species girl
transforming into something
I dont know, choiceless
I am not dying, no
I am metamorphosised
Oh, the pain of changing
from within, the cosmic attacks
Oh...............I am pained
but words are meaningless
words are wastes
they dont express
what I am undergoing
the spell is cast
Let me die unconscious........