When I Thought Poem by ESPN CHICK

Just when I thought all my pain went away
When I thought my life was gonna change
Everything comes crashing down

Right when I turned around
Things were going out of whack
I was hoping I could stop it

Stop all the pain and make it all go away
But I couldn't stop it and all the pain didn't go away
Wondered why I'm stuck with this pain all over again

Guess I was right all along
Pain is just a part of me
Apart of my life and everything in between

When I thought I was gonna be happy for a while
When I thought I was gonna have something good come my way
When I was on the verge of being not so alone

Everything just comes crashing down right in front of me
Didn't know what to do
Couldn't believe this was happening to me once again

Just felt like everything and everyone was against me
All I felt like doing was crying my eyes out
Building pain back up all over again

Just when I thought everything was said and done
Feelings came back for him that I thought was gone for good
These thoughts are bound to stay in me for the rest of my life

I never saw it coming
I was blinded by the light from the beginning
All I ever wanted was a happy ending or a dream come true

But I guess life doesn't end that way not for me anyway
When I thought my life was gonna be okay
When I thought my whole world was gonna be satisfied

My life comes crashing down in the mist of the night
Leaving me crying myself a river
Leaving me to rot within myself forever and ever

May 4,2008