When Love Becomes Pain - 12 Mar 2020 Poem by Umasree Raghunath

When love become pain
Emotions gutter you to the core
Person who showered love become stranger
Life becomes miserable to sustain or adore
Everything you felt so close became fallacy
Pushing me to the sea of depression
Struggled all my life with hallucinations
And now the very real life lived is called one
God, I didn't ask for this love my way
It just happened. Truly. Deeply and sincerely
Today, I struggle to tell him what I feel
To ask for his few minutes for me, I hesitate
Amidst work, I break down and run to washroom to cry
Tears don't get dried and I know no need for fears
But the words that I hinder his progress
And I burden him with my love in his liberation
Makes me wither…not once again God
In the name of love, I don't want to feel this pain
The thoughts shared and moments spent are not fallacy
They are so true to my mind, body and soul
Once again, he calls it all a myth. And he is now awakened
From the slumber of love, longing,lust or affection
Was all that sprang only from the sympathy, concern and care?
Then this whole life, I lived is just not fair
Let me end this life God…I am tired time and again
To be tested to see how strong or how many more times
I can be broken in the name of love, I am dead soul today
Trying to dry up,tears to dry up…soul to stop