When Was The Last Time I Felt So Special? Poem by Emelita C. Smith

When we were just starting
I felt like a queen
You treated me royally
As if there is no one like me.
When I got your first gift
I was totally elated
The two colors of my favorite flower
I was envied of so many ladies.

I thought or maybe
I was just hopelessly romantic
Those times I felt I was the prettiest
I was thinking will last as the days go by.

Minutes turn to hour
Hours turn to day
Days turn to months
Months turn to years.

The first time I fall in love with you
I love you the same
I have love you
And I have trusted you.

When I conceived our gift from heaven
I was scared alone and lonely
I wished you were at my side
But I understand why you can't be with me.

Our daughter got your first hug
When her first glanced of this world
I was only the second to hold her
I was fighting off the effect of anesthesia.

Then the beautiful garden I was making
Slowly dying as the struggles started
Sometimes it was too heavy to go on
Sometimes I felt I can not hold on.

But then the love I have for you
Can not be altered by any thing
In the name of love I remain strong
But honestly with out you I can't go on.

The hardships and bumps every now and then
It makes me feel I'm less for myself
No more me the woman whom I know
Independent and can take care of herself.

When was the last time I felt so special?
It was a long time ago but I still feel the feeling
Every time when I think about it
I just wish I will feel special forever for real.

As the years go by I feel like
I am just the woman whom got married
An obligation to fulfill
I need sometimes an extra loving.

Date of mind rambling. (March 23,2012,12: 29 am.)