Who Am I? Poem by Dallas Carter

Am I an angel fell from heaven
Or a demon risen from hell?
Do I fall in with the holy
Or is my place among the damned?
Am I really meant for happiness
Or is that just out of my reach?
Can I finally achieve redemption
Or will I always fall beneath?

These questions I ponder nightly
When it's late and I'm all alone.
The demons that live inside of me
Come alive once the world is dark.
They feed on my desperation
They mock my cries for help.
Am I really of God's creation
Or did He leave me to burn in hell?

Awoken from a dream
Startled back to life,
The endless burning
The lonesome nights,
The hurt inside
The pain outside,
The fear that follows
The memories that bleed.

I will never escape the life I've lived
But is it possible to twist my fate?
Can a one-way flight to damnation
Change the course it's on?
Can a tragedy written already
Be erased and written again?
If I sold my soul to the devil
Is it possible to buy it back?