Dallas Carter

You saw the beauty in me when not even I could,
You reached out to someone as broken as myself,
You believed I could do this when all I saw was defeat,
God sends us angels to our Earth to mend those like me.
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Imagine yourself in a frozen forest,
The calm silence surrounds the land,
The wind non-existent,
The air frozen,
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You think that you're worthless, that your life has no meaning,
That everything you do, every word you speak is insignificant.
You keep to yourself, keep your thoughts to yourself,
Hold the pain inside, don't bother letting anyone in, they might get destroyed.
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I wander the dark corridors of my mind
And as I go through them the loneliness kicks in.
I feel surrounded by something,
But what is it? I have no clue.
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I wish I could cry.
It's all that I've wanted to do for days.
But for some reason the tears won't come.
I feel the pain, and only the pain.
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I wish you would talk to me, just tell me what I said.
I'm losing in every other aspect of my life right now.
I can't risk losing my best friend too.
I'm lost, and I need you now more than I have ever before.
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She taunts me when no one is looking,
Takes over my mind after the sun runs away.
Leaves me empty hearted, stranded on the sidewalk,
Wishing she didn't know me so well.
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I'm really confused right now.
Sometimes I know exactly what you want me to do,
But other times I just get so lost.
Maybe I'm looking at it wrong.
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You mean something to me that I don't know how to describe.
I can try to explain it, but I don't know if it is even possible to find justifiable words for it.
Everything that has been building between us for almost a year
Everything I've been hiding inside for all this time
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Pain is inevitable at this point.
It surrounds me, not only physically, but also mentally and emotionally.
I will never be normal, I don't know how to,
It's like living with a black hole inside me.
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I walk the empty corridors of my memory,
Opening each room one at a time.
Watching the scenery play out in front of my eyes,
A ghostly figure standing over my childhood self.
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The fear
It chokes me half to death sometimes.
I try to hide it
To force it deep down within myself.
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Complex and intricate, yet simpletons we may be.
Selflessness is unknowingly a selfish desire to be seen as giving.
We see one with internal agony and fill our minds with foolish hopes to cure them of their ailments.
Attempts to drown out our own pain by distracting ourselves with someone else's.
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The wind grazes softly against his face,
It whispers the words I wish I could say.
A question unspoken, the answer unknown,
Oh, how I wish you had known what you'd stolen.
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Am I an angel fell from heaven
Or a demon risen from hell?
Do I fall in with the holy
Or is my place among the damned?
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I had you
Then I lost you
I love you
Then I lose you
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Her breath on the side of my face,
The feel of her skin on mine.
Hands where I don't want them,
Lips where I don't need them.
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It chokes me
Suffocating me slowly.
It drowns me
Rushing water I cannot breathe.
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It calls to me in words I do not know
Singing sweet melodies in an unrecognizable tone
Chilled fingers brush against my lips
Nothing to be satisfied in such a sweet kiss
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Darkness that blinds, but never stays
Hope that finds me in a daze
Somber hallways lea a bitter maze
Empty truths will hold a gruesome taste
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