Why? Poem by Trysta Due

Why does this always have to happen
The people I'm with wanting to die,
To take their life just because of one person
Yet they're never there to see the look in my eye,
To see the pain it puts me through
I don't think any of them really know,
All the things I've been through
Making it harder for me to not let myself go,
To just end my life and be with my dad
Many of them just do see,
All that they really should
But maybe that's just me,
Keeping to myself like I do best
But I don't want to get close,
I don't want to feel the pain of them leaving
That's one thing I fear the most,
Being left to feel the pain
The pain that took over my heart,
The day that I was told about my dad
I just wanted a fresh start,
So I ended up attempting suicide
To disappear from this place,
To go be by his side where I know I belong
And leaving without another trace.