Why It Cant Be Poem by Josh Currier

There’s a tear rolling off my face,
As I sit here writing this for you.
I wish so bad I could lie to myself,
That I could make it all seem true.

I can’t give you what you want,
I can’t be that rising sun.
I have no heart left to give,
It already belongs to someone.

I’m not that man you want me to be,
I can’t make promises like I said.
We had some good times and I still want our friendship,
But I can’t change the thoughts in my head.

I really do love her Ashley,
This I just want you to see.
She still to this day holds onto my heart,
I can’t be who you want me to be.

I know I said I was over her,
But that was only a lie.
If I carry this on and lead you along,
I cant watch those tears fall from your eyes.

I don’t want to hurt you,
Or see you sad in anyway.
But I’m just being honest with you,
Please take in what Iv'e had to say.

I’m telling you this to protect you,
From where our future may go.
What if one day my heart returned to me,
I know I couldn't let that go.

You’re beautiful and smart,
You live your life with a mission.
Its only because I can’t commit to you,
That’s why Iv'e made this decision.

If I still had my heart,
There’s a chance I could give it again.
But it just not there anymore,
My love cant be every now and then.


If I knew it were over forever,
This would be so much easier on me.
But you have to understand that we had a lot,
I truly feel it was meant to be.

If I give that up I may never know,
The rest of my life may be filled with hell.
Never knowing if I gave everything up,
Could you do that yourself?

It’s a terrible feeling Ashley,
Not knowing what to do.
I just have to stick to what I know,
And I can’t let you down or hurt you.

You said it yourself,
That your ex was still in your mind.
It’s far worse than that for me,
She’s the one I thought I’d never find.

If you take your time,
There’s a chance of better things.
Right now I can’t do this with you,
But who knows what the future may bring.

I’m going through a tough time right now,
And I need to find out who I am inside.
But I promise that you and I can stay friends,
We can keep that part alive.

These words all have meaning,
And I’ve written every feeling out to you.
By the size of this poem I think it shows it,
That I just don’t want to be untrue.

I’m sorry Ashley I really am