Winter Lonliness Poem by JAMES T. ADAIR

I feel lonely today
its a feeling that comes and goes
but when it hits hard
as today
I wonder if it shows

If someone might see my eyes
and look closely
they would know
this lonley feeling
that seems to stick
and doesn't easily go

Someday
I always think of someday
mabye it will go away
if you were by my side
to share with me and always stay
I wonder how life woudl be
if it was that way

Someone to hold my hand
in moments when I wish one was near
who would sympathize and understand
Or to join me for a peaceful walk
together two to share and talk
But today that isn't to be
I'm felling alone
just myself and me

Sometimes when chores are done
I wish there was something fun
laughter and smiles to share
but truly nobody like that is there
to feel comfortable to look in her eyes
and lovingly gaze
and to be comforted by her gentle ways
but lonliness is my company today
until the empty feeling goes away

My life is not my own
but still I'm only my own it seems
except for simple longing dreams
where happiness beams
But today those thoughts only
make me feel more lonely
in a way that can't easily be described
for which nothing can be prescribed
except maybe love

My heart, is healing bit by bit
but the progress seems so slow
a few good days and suddenly
one that feels again so low
today I feel unsure of everything
I wish I had a lover with whom to confide
all the things I have held inside
who knows that all along I have truly tried
and many tears have alone cried

In my heart I think its only love
that can now make sense of things
and my thoughts are only of sharing
my remaining Falls, Summers, Winters and Springs
The holidays are here
and perhaps the sad memories I fear
There is someone whose presence I feel latey
right or wrong, I long from her to hear
she touches me somenow
and I wish that she was near

So lonely is my fate today
this feeling I'll try to fight
this rainy Winter night
when much seems wrong
and not much seems right

As the night gets colder in degrees
inside I feel not free but feel the freeze
lonliness has won and my broken heart
nods to my broken spirit
and just agrees

© James T. Adair