Words That Always Went Unsaid Poem by michael capper

Here I’m laying out the Words unsaid of true thoughts that bleed from my head. This isn’t a twist or even a lie my true feelings for you I always kept locked inside, far too much fear always holding me back I tried to step forward and never look back.
You walked through that door and into my life you took over my thoughts you took over my life. I thought more of you than you may ever know always an never wanted to let it show. Harder to explain than it may seem for I was damaged by all that had been never thinking that you could unlock me you got inside an truly rocked me.
The damage inside I must now explain the past had ruined me and made me insane, now daily thoughts which ran through my head even when I lay next to you in our bed, she will never love you, Your not good enough, why can I not just show her my love? am I holding too tight? or am I letting her go? I didn’t know which way to go.
But through all this your heart was so tender an all of it I so dearly remember from that look in your eye to the touch of your hand you pulled me right up and got me to stand.
So many times I close my eyes just to imagine you by my side because since you’ve been gone I’ve truly missed you wish you were there so I could kiss you. Wanted you there at the end of the day to listen to your voice and tell you of my dismay.
I’m well aware of my mistakes ones that can never just unmake but it has led me here today where I sit here an think of you most of the day then into the night while I do so sleep your smile your warmth at least there I can keep.