You Don'T Know.... Poem by Kimberly Lindsey

You don’t know how I felt yesterday,
how hard the darkness tried to take me away.
You don’t know how close of a miss it was,
I was completely on my way down.

You don’t know how I cried out in desperation,
To God my pleas were sent.
I did not know if I could make it,
I knew the dark side was way too close.

You don’t know how scared I was,
And how I completely tormented myself.
I was beyond controlling the flood of tears,
That fell like a waterfall…unstoppable.

You don’t know how I was losing the ability,
To hold on to my sanity.
I questioned everything in life,
From beginning to end.

You don’t know that only God saved me,
Kept me from going over the edge.
Kept me from plowing my car into a tree,
Or an oncoming car instead.

You don’t know how I cried out and told God,
That I could not take anymore.
The internal questions, debates and uncertainty,
On top of everything else, was too much to implore.

You don’t know how close you came to losing me,
Without God, I would not be here.
I thank God, for staying my hand,
I have so many blessings, so much love to give.

I don’t know why that happened,
But it scared me, made me see, that my meds are a God send.
I don’t know why I need them,
But never will I forget again.