BTS Chocolate

I'm slowly vanishing
The person I once knew is clawing itself out of me
No more delicate little hands
No more tiny body
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As the year comes to the end, happy smiles appear
The laughter fills the air as I look around my world
A group of guys laugh like a party
The girls next to me peaceful as they could ever be
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The touch of a hand on one's back is soft and sweet
It makes one wonder if they shall cry
I cry to see a beautiful moment between a couple
To see the warm hand upon one's back
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Alone and sad
Grey and blue
I don't mind it dear 'friend'
I know that feeling of being isolated
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I don't who I am
I feel like an imposter in this big blue world
We're all imposters I should say
I don't know how to act
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Tears slide down my red checks
I just ran at the best meet I could ever attend
But you don't care
You haven't for a full year
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You used to be a friend to me
But now you're a stranger
You act like as if nothing has ever happened
But this isn't new shit
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Oh what a pretty sight she is
Oh how fair beauty she holds
Oh how her skin lights up the room
Latte skin mixed with creamy toasted honey
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I'm blue as the ocean
I feel the waves crashing down onto me
The sharp stabs of the shells shed blood
As I smack down onto the sand
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Sometimes I wonder what life would be like without me
It sounds so bad but it makes glad
I think I would enjoy the idea of looking upon thy
I would laugh at all the chaos in the world
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The sound of music calms my distressed mind
The worries slowly fade into nothingness, the rhythm defeats the strength of a thousand worries
If press the volume louder...
Will I explode into nothingness just like my worries?
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The choosing of music brings me such infuriating feelings
So many options, give me a break
The trash coming out of your potty mouth, oh it kills me inside
The blaring noises, my shaking leg, my sweaty hands
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You see that child, let your eyes absorb their glory
That goody two shoes of a child is what they say
Exceptionally bright, higher hopes then the rest
What a fabulous child their parents say
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The gray sky paints a weary day
Shouldn't it be a yellow day?
The houses are frozen in place as if liquid nitrogen was poured all over
The mousy trees stick out like skeletons, except it's not white
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The future gives me quite the scare
Financial looks like it's such a burden
With all its taxing, loans and interest rates
The idea of marriage fills my heart
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A girl who cries at night
But is never heard
The wails vibrate against the walls
Not even the child's parents hear the poor girl's wails of terror
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Another gray day goes by
Life goes on
Same old routine
This ancient volume sits alone on the oily table waiting to be opened up
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Hey you!
Yes, you!
You're so beautiful
Words can't describe how your beauty shines through the darkened world
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Our world is a troubled world
Full of hatred, proverty and unhappy people
I wish to heal those scars that shed bright red
Bring richness to charities who open their arms to those in need
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Society such similar ideas
Exact ideas right?
Ugh bias!
Be like us they press 'calmly'
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