Falling Awake

Rough manly lines and a stark striking blue
Jump out against the season's moody sky
Tracing your depths, my flesh colored anew
I'm jolted from sleep inside my mind's eye
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A white fine toothed comb
Runs through my being
Neuron knots de-conditioning
Liberating, freeing
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Not moving on or away,
Time passes- it elapses,
And I'm moving forward-
with no timeline,
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Ears perked at every
meeting of tire to gravel
My neck extends out
Like a desperate dog
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This change in gravitation,
From my centerpiece dying,
Has me spinning in rotation,
But I'm still hanging on trying.
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A response to stress,
I'm a nervous mess,
And, I just don't know
what to do with my hands.
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Four years elapsed,
Since the world collapsed,
And I still can't delete it,
Delete it from my head.
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I'm still rooted, anchored down
Admittedly, sipping on past sorrow…
Yet, I sense a calling for realization
So, wherever the sun arcs… I follow
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Wasting my time,
on the borderline, empty,
I reach for the next second.
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Muffled echoes of your voice,
Fall shy of my ear's drum,
While your coldening flesh,
Remains just out of reach,
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I attempt my ascent,
but a constant resistance
to my movements
is forcing me back,
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If I could transcribe behind your eyes,
I'd see the times they've sunk and cried,
The shadows of pain you've held inside,
And all the needs you've been denied.
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What's left of your taste is fading,
And, with a mouthful left to say,
I'm left dehydrating and thirsting,
Unable to swallow your memory.
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I'm coasting through my life,
Many chances unseen,
Perfection or failure-
I know nothing between.
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The wind still whispers your name,
I strain for messages it may contain,
But you're dead and gone, all the same,
Still, the wind whispers your name.
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Frozen in stagnancy,
The steel blanket hovers,
Looming across my sky.
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With my tires crunching below,
I find the ground passes so fast,
Appearing smooth under my board.
We carve through colored canopies,
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Eyelids peel away
Pupils enlarge
Neural synapses open
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In just one split of an instant
Life force entirely withdrew
With your vitality vanished
I find myself severed in two
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Bending towards the sun,
my wildflowers open,
and my fruits sweetly ripen.
The sunlight on my garden looks nice,
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