Everytime I lay in bed,
I always think what I've said,
then I think this is all real instead,
sometimes it feels like my heart stops,
sometimes I want to reach for the phone and phone the cops,
I've never felt so low,
please help me out of this deep dark hole,
this is all going so fast,
please stop or at lest last,
this is a brand new year,
but i know I'll always fear.


(March 20/ 2006)