Ana Podarevska Poems

i lay entwined in your sheets
and cover myself with ragged breathing,
hoping the words falling from your lips
will be the words that i've been needing.
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when did your innocence shatter?
your fingers used to trip over my skin,
but now run up my thigh
so effortlessly.
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Smeared and wasted,
Unmoving on the bathroom floor.
Grime and makeup under her nails
Because she tried to tear her mask off.
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my stomach swells
and i feel pregnant
but it's only the bottle of water i drank.
then again, the brand is Life Water
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'To whom it may concern,
It's still raining dirt outside my door.
The baby in the jar, I swear,
Gave me a wink and a grin.'
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you've finally melted into what i hoped you were underneath.
and it's so messed up that i can only love in reaction to abuse,
i can only stay attached if i know i'm being used;
an outlet for anger or for input of lust,
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Syrup slows the blood in your veins
You're losing yourself again
(You're losing me again)
Unresponsive and desolated
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Sometimes I think I skipped my childhood completely.
I shouldn't be where I am.
Sometimes I think me loving you so discreetly
never gave you a thought of how much I cared.
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i push some words he will inevitably forget
in his general direction.
his grin breaks out before they even reach
his comprehension.
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how i want to use him is a secret only to me.
if i knew my intentions, i could stop the flies.
if i knew his thinking, i would swallow his pride.
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