you've finally melted into what i hoped you were underneath.
and it's so messed up that i can only love in reaction to abuse,
i can only stay attached if i know i'm being used;
an outlet for anger or for input of lust,
what used to be selfless was broken like trust.
i'm sorry i forced you to grow into this monster
but i can't love what i don't deserve.
i'd rather be cowering in a corner, my psyche slowly falling apart,
then living and knowing day after day
that i'm the one breaking your heart.
[April 30,2007.12 days after the fact.]
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
Sounds like your on the verge of giving up something worthwhile because you don't think you're worthy (I've read your other poetry which suggests this as well) . Don't make that mistake - stick it out. Check out my poem Divorce/El Nino. Be each other's better half. Good Luck. Dan