Astra N.

Yesterday,
I had plans for today,
But today had other plans,
For me.
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I don't know how,
To take up space,
In this world.
I'm afraid,
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Could I be,
Myself,
With you?
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I wish you,
An everlasting sense of wonder,
And endless delight,
In the discovery of new things.
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Here I am again,
In a room full of people,
Forced together through tradition,
Of festive fun at the end of the year.
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She has the type of mind,
That keeps churning out thoughts,
Lists and tasks, shoulds and coulds,
Filling up every corner.
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What can soothe a mind,
Is acceptance,
That you can't control everything,
Can't be everything.
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I revel in the beauty
Of that which is not real
Of fairytales worlds away
Of reality twisted
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I'm not ordinary
I'm not special either
Just an odd blend of human
With a touch too much quiet
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To the parallel me,
I wish just a little more courage,
To step into the light,
And walk towards what makes you happy.
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Time passes,
And life shifts,
But I stay mostly the same,
Only with an increasing certainty
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'Sometimes I'm real,
Sometimes I'm fake'.

For some reason,
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Thoughts,
Feelings,
Translated to words,
Put down on a piece of paper.
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I write,
Because I need to process,
To release and make visible,
What I feel.
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I miss you,
And miss you,
And miss you.
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I live in between,
Hope,
And fear,
Of hope.
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