I never was popular and I most likely never will be. I have never been loved by many people who I don't know and I never will be. I have never been told by someone I don't know that I was important. I have never been told by someone I don't know that I was stronger than I think I am. I have rarely had someone look me in the eyes and tell me the truth when I ask them a question. I have never heard someone say that I have a voice. I have rarely heard someone tell me that what I say matters. I have rarely had someone tell me I could make a difference in the world. Though some of these things are words most people want to hear I don't need to hear because I already know the truth about myself. I Know I am not popular but I would rather have a few very close friends who support me instead of having multiple people who will leave me and turn their backs on me. I Know I am not loved by many people because I don't need to be. I would rather have people who really love me than people who don't love me for who I am but for who they want me to be. I Know that I am important and that I matter. I Know I am strong and I Know I am brave. I don't need someone to look me in the eyes and tell me the truth because I already know the truth. I Know I have a voice and that I can use it however I want. I Know that I can make a difference in the world. It might not be a big one and it might not land in a history book but it will land in someone's life. I know who I am. I Know what I want for myself and I Know what I want for the people I love around me. I Know I can stand up for what I Know and think is right. I KNOW MYSELF AND WILL NOT LET ANYONE TAKE THAT AWAY FROM ME EVER! ! !
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Freedom, at last, freedom from pain, suffering, fear. Pain from hurting, pain from being lied to, pain from not being a size 2.
I am free from the hate! I am free from the tears shed every night in my bed. No more sitting in the bathtub and weeping because I am now forever sleeping.
My last moments were calming and people might call me selfish but I did what I could to leave this world that I would describe as hellish.
Some might be sad, some might be mad, and some people might actually be glad.
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Libertad, por fin, libertad del dolor, el sufrimiento, el miedo. Dolor por lastimar, dolor por que le mientan, dolor por no tener la talla 2.
¡Estoy libre del odio! Estoy libre de las lágrimas derramadas todas las noches en mi cama. No más estar sentado en la bañera y llorar porque ahora estoy durmiendo para siempre.
Mis últimos momentos fueron calmantes y la gente podría llamarme egoísta, pero hice lo que pude para dejar este mundo que describiría como infernal.
Algunos pueden estar tristes, otros pueden estar enojados y algunas personas pueden estar contentas.
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Control
Isn't that what you're looking for?
Control
because everything goes on
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I have had a Battle with myself multiple times. I have battled myself and I will not lie.
I have had to Battle against depression. I have had to Battle with repression.
I have had to Battle with my brain. I have had to Battle with my pain.
I have had to battle with my emotions. I have had to battle with devotion.
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