3 am drowning in tears of sorrow
Looking at tomorrow but there is no arrow
Sometimes wondering if living
Is worth a damn thing
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Life, love what to choose
The confusion came that day
That day were I failed to choose
Yes! When I first saw you, everything became grey
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I feel this anger boiling inside
Like a kettle water boils inside
As darkness grows in this fertile soil
All the isolation is the seed buried into the soil
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I remember his conviction
I remember the press all over him
And us like flies all over a dead cops
In one day my life changed
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When emotions pile up
When anger build up
When a friend is not a friend
When darkness overpowers my world
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What to use, poison,
Shall I use a gun?
When the sadness arises
When madness arises
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I don't believe in ghost
Yet am more than just a host
They say death is fear
But through his death, am free
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The long fallen generation
The strong fighting generation
The generation that had a mission
The generation that had a vision
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Sometimes pleasure is violence
As my dignity and humanity grows a distance
Sometimes the smell of blood
Fills my ego, as hate and its flood
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sounds of screams
Everytime his home drunk
His soul is truly black it seems
His inferiority lashes when he think
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Appearance Vs Reality
They appear to be white
They claim to be right
Covered in make up
They say the spot light is up
I for one have made
Myself to be unknown
The skin is cover in mad
They hide their reality
They hide their African
To bring the so called super dignity
Just to be African American
As our reality fade away
And our appearance leads the way
Why care about reality
When they have the appearance
That creates a better publicity
The only key is maintenance
Until our reality no longer matters
And the world of our own making exist
Where only our looks matters