Jalyn Jones

My copious thoughts of darkness and dread,
due to memories of you filling my head.
The more I cry out the more you don't hear.
without you my days are built out of fear.
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I can't look up because you're always there,
standing near me with your long dark hair.
I can't stand still because you'll catch me,
you'll only seek answers I won't let you see.
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A half heart I have now, what did you do to me?
blinded by lies that you have sent through to me,
I don't want to cry, but what can I do you see?
When hatred and love make up our anatomy.
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She flows like a river through
my mind yet, she never stays
current. I ask myself why; then
question why this question I ask
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I close my eyes and think of you,
I open them to wish you were true.
Each second that passes torture me,
as I wish and dream of holding thee.
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My days began as night it seemed,
a dark identity engulfed in a dream.
My feelings collecting until non-existing,
facial expression lacking despair,
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If nothing had is nothing needed,
why is something wanted seen as greed?
Do we deceive our minds to avoid getting hurt
because we know the relationship will never work?
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The undesirable outcome I've completely missed,
not near a fairy tale sealed with a kiss.
The person I realized I wanted to be,
to me no longer seems within reach.
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