Don'T Go

My copious thoughts of darkness and dread,
due to memories of you filling my head.
The more I cry out the more you don't hear.
without you my days are built out of fear.
The screams for help are too much to bear,
they leave me empty and pulling my hair.
My frightening truth is losing you,
this I will never be ready to do.
I'd rather leave first to go Up or go Down.
with solace because you still sleep safe and sound.