J.C. Masa

Just a man trying his best,
Even the man in the mirror he cannot impress.
Still bleeding from the wounds that will never heal,
My body is tired, but my mind never rests.
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Being with you feels like home, you offer me hope and the will to carry on.
You bring me peace with your presence when I'm at war with myself alone.

How I wish I could live that ephemeral euphoria again,
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You looked so beautiful last night; I was at ease.
Your eyes light up every time you smile.
Stealing glances at you, I can't resist—
It set me in a deep realization, and 'what ifs':
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I once had it all; never thought that I would fall like this.
Took my shot, and I missed.
Momentary bliss, I guess.
Went to the stars and hell and back—but I'm fine.
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I watch you laugh,
I watch you shine—
I'm wishing, somehow,
you were mine.
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Silent feelings in the dark,
You've lit a flame inside my heart.
I watch, I wish, but cannot start;
I'm catching feelings, right from the start.
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I am starting to accept the fact that
We will never be together.
Someday these feelings will detach,
Leaving only the pieces of what once mattered.
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All I do is drink, brew, and screw.
Thought it would take the pain,
but it's not true.
What can I do? I've been in this cycle since twenty-two,
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One motorcycle ride makes me feel alive and free.
It gives me a chance to pause for a while and just be carefree.
Now I'm here on the other side, where that feeling can't be.
Just stuck within these four walls every night, where my thoughts run crazy.
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Perhaps pieces of me will complete you in another universe,
even if it costs pieces of me to fix you.
But all I can do now is shout into the void,
hoping my feelings will traverse—
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Loving you has two choices:
fading into the void or sinking into the vastness of the abyss.
Still, I will choose to go through this dark metamorphosis
if it's what it takes for my love to get noticed.
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It's crazy that the only person who cured my fear of love
Is the one person I might not be able to have.
Still, I'm going to give it all I've got,
Because I feel she's the best thing I never had.
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If you could only swim in the river of my consciousness,
you would find it overflowing with your graciousness.
Follow the stream to my heart—do not be afraid; it is not ominous.
My love for you flows so deep, where river and sea become synonymous.
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I've been screaming your name in silence,
Through a paper trail—
Not for you to figure out or decode my words,
Because you are already the detail.
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Sometimes I wonder if you're an acquainted stranger
Or a destined lover.

You are something infinitely interesting;
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Pain is the price of admission for a beautiful feeling,
Even in times when there's no direction to where I'm going.
I am weak because I care—and I'm okay with that.
Even if all you ever feel is despair, for me, it's a must-have.
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I saw a pink sky today—
it made me realize there are many contrasts to your rays.
You guide me along the right path
and give me warmth when I'm astray.
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You were just a shadow in my peripheral vision,
Never thought you'd become my full attention.
You lift me up without the need for elevation,
And now I know the feeling of pure adoration.
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I don't want to be just another chapter in your life,
Because I know I can give you better.
Let me be a whole new book for you,
And one day, make you my wife.
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14 hours of driving,900 miles—
yet you're still on my mind.
You gave my life a new divide,
an eternal commitment and drive
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