Leann(Lee-Lee) Pilgrim

Looking & searching for true love,
Painfully Failing twice,
Finally, I gave up, tired of feeling hurt like after a fall from a painful shove,
Finally, I called a truce.
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All my life,
I have felt nothing but terrible bad pain,
My day by day daily life feels like being stabbed by a knife,
Bruises, scars and wounds is something daily I gain.
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Black, white, mix, albino, women, men, young, old, homosexual, heterosexual, rich, poor, it doesn't matter we fight,
Until are chains are tight,
And it ain't right.
On the inside we are the same,
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Cry myself to sleep,
My heart has a hole so too deep.
From a search of true love,
Wondering when I get to see the beautiful dove.
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I give up, I don't want to live anymore,
Why hold on to life when you have no reason to be alive? ,
It hurts to remember the broken promises people swore,
I have no family, no friends, and nobody to give me a reason to live.
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Oh Alex, why? ,
Why cause me this terrible pain? ,
Oh Alex, now my thoughts are full of nothing but ways that I can die,
What happiness and pleasure out of this did you gain? .
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On the outside, all seems fine,
But on the inside,
I'm on my knees,
Screaming and crying for someone to love me, begging someone out there, please.
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Oh my love,
Oh my love, where have you wander to?
Oh my love, are you hurt or in sorrow, please tell worry has wrapped itself around me like a tight glove, Oh my love, a day without you is like a day without oxygen, please let me see or hear from you.
Oh my love, oh how I miss you,
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Patience and longing,
For the owner of the voice of my lonely future lover,
Am I imagine, the voice that comforts me to sleep and cause me calming,
For the more I hear the voice of my future lover.
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Oh, my heart,
Is drowning in all the tears I've cried,
Oh, how it is still chained to my dear A.C., like how unseen secrets are chained to the world's most greatest and most beautiful art.
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Can't you see the through my eyes,
Can't you see the gray skies,
Then if so why cause more pain?
What out of it do you gain?
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Why do I get hurt whenever I fall in love,
In the end they end up hurting me? ,
When I beg and plead with them to tell me why all I get is silence and laughter back even after all of me that I gave,
I can't feel anything inside expect for pain, agony, longing for someone who may have never really care for me.
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Sorrow & agony is a daily feeling for me,
It makes me feel like I can't breathe,
I wish these two feelings would just let me be,
I feel like I'm drowning but everyone around can breathe.
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Breaking inside while I watch you smile and laugh from afar,
Feeling inside like I'm being ripped piece by piece and put back together again,
Over and over again breaking inside from afar,
The unbearable and agonizing pain.
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This pain is unbelieve agonizing,
The pain is hidden all day,
But at night the pain is surfacing,
Oh, will someone put the shatter pieces of my heart back together so this agonizing pain can go away.
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The agonizing daily pain and longing is starting to wear me down,
Oh, it's unbearable to have to deal with this darkness and emptiness inside,
I don't want to be in this darkness of agony and longing continuous over and over drown,
Of can someone save me from agonizing pain of longing and misery inside
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Do you see the world through open eyes?
Or do you live life blind?
Because if you do then you might as well living life in blind lies,
Believe me, that life is not a happy kind.
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All my life, I've felt numb from the lack of being loved,
Now, true love has been found and I can finally feel again,
No more pain and loneliness, only plans for when the times to wed,
Finally, my wish finally came true and now I have now kissed goodbye the past pain,
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The feelings of love,
Is the most amazing wonderful feeling that anyone could ever imagine,
More beautiful and pure than the purest white dove,
It feels 10 times greater than any pain or any sorrow that anyone could imagine.
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Life is always full of pain,
There is some pain that is good king and then there's the bad kind,
Both causes you in the end to give you strength and wisdom from it that you gain,
For as long as I could remember to before I met my true love now, I've felt and known just only the bad kind.
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