? ? ? ? ? ? Poem by Eman Awad

I'm scared, that's what i want to admit,
the same time a year ago, the same time.
I felt the same way and ended in regret,
i was just chasing what was never mine.
I was listening to the same song,
dreaming away in a velvet world.
I thought this is where i belong,
i thought i was some one's girl.
My heart was beating the same way,
and my lips were aching from smiles.
I felt more beautiful every day,
i walked in joy, those winding miles.
I ended with a heart break,
i couldn't stand hearing that song.
When all the lyrics were for his sake,
when it made me to cry all along.
The same song i'm hearing now,
the same feeling in my heart.
I'm back in love some how,
i'm yearning for a new start.
But i'm scared to end up shattered like before,
when his smile lights up my world and his words make my day.
When his love i crave and his calls i can't ignore,
when i can't stand my life thinking what if he had to go away.
And i find new meanings and new feelings in this song,
like i'm hearing it for the first time in my weary life.
I imagine the features of his face, which for i long,
without this man i know i don't stand a chance to survive.
I made a promise that i didn't keep,
i promised my self not to love again.
But i'm head over heals, into deep,
what will i do if he left me, what'd remain? ?