After All Poem by Laura arwen

Everybody considers me
stupid and lazy
Sometimes I think
to not have
plenty of time
on doing what
I want
I want back
my old inspiration
because in this
moment I'm very
exhausted for people
noises
I'm really unhappy
to be around
people
I need to
have a break
from my obsessions
I need to
relax my nerves
because I put
too much pressure
on my head
I believe we
can live with
less things and
without bad memories
I don't blame
myself anymore to
be so messy
but I do
my best to
organize myself
Probably in the
future I'll carry
many regrets
I don't care
to be nice
and social
I suppose that
nothing will change
for me in
the future
I need to
charge myself with
something positive
It's time to
search a new
home