Bantry
We were taught:
- "Energy is two kinds;
-Kinetic, Potential."
"It is same with our thoughts, "
-said Shahla Lahiji; author of
- "The quest of women."
The thoughts boil and bubble
-constantly, permanent…
-to settle only with narration!
My thoughts were energy
-kept boiling, shook, shivered,
-made range of "Super-strings",
-gave prize to the "God Particle! "
Devil night's start was
-losing keys; in bundle;
- (on weekend, Saturday.)
Too ugly was my night;
-sleepless, roll-and-toss.
I was on "Bantry" headed East.
Thought of her; there she lived;
(By the Yonge, to Southeast.)
Were colleagues for a time
-shared coffee and the lunch
-in office, restaurants…
- (indoor-sales was our job!)
Once I went to their house.
She did things that I liked
-and the things, I disliked!
Seemed sure with ideas
-for herself, both of us;
-same did I, but for while.
I had kept my secrets.
My pains were inside cave.
Not-said, they were ciphered!
Meant to say: "Let it end! "
She, being a woman, diplomat:
- "Why don't you invite me
-to enter in your house? "
Could read her intention;
-her head on my shoulder
-our bodies in same bed!
Her father was sick with
-Alzheimer (not just age!)
I drove and thought of
-my day-night, disaster
-whatever the reason!
Losing keys in small area?
-in front of those eyes?
-was it joke or mistake?
-or a game of revenge?
Called friends to seek help.
Goodness was frozen
-friends' hands in pockets,
-had no rein on their tongues
-generous, but in talk and advice
-they lectured with nonsense,
-as horses galloping in a race:
- "I would do different…! "
Found comfort to leave them,
-burying bitterness and burden.
Managed to find a man
-locksmith, professional:
- "I am a magician! "
Looking at such friends
-gave me hate of myself:
- "Can I be one of them? "
I prayed not to be:
- "Hope am not! "
Small van was man's shop
-paper books and
-with machines to key-cut
-from the mass in box…
He opened, took lock out
-all sweat, he worked hard
-once, twice, many times
-failed but cut and tried.
He wasted four or more,
-but at end it did work.
-I drove half impaired…
-with my phone almost dead
-using its battery for calling…
-the friends who were fog,
-were lost in Sahara.
Therefore, I, back and forth
-headed for East and North
-in hope of getting home…
Boiled the thoughts in my mind
-the thought was "What to write? "
- (of past, now, when inside.)
What to say of friend prefer
-sex-party of TV, rest in bed,
-to going out and help!
Therefore, they and their talks
-are copied from fart:
- "Be short, fast and get out! "
Remembered her and ways
-acted more, rarely said!
Now, feel bad, dishonest
-for having dropped her,
-forgetting her address.
Yet know that though had key
-had to face those limits
-set by Ex and our kids:
"No guest and no friends! "
"No calling, no message! "
"Listen but don't return! "
Life was hell, over there!
-how could I invite her?
Before car was ready
-by Magic-Locksmith
-I thought of a friend
-who could have,
-possibly, keys copied.
He had one but not ‘Fab'
-and became next angel.
On the road I thought of
-her, our home, in her time.
On the road my thoughts were
-kinetic energy…
Parked the car, luckily
-a woman, very weak
-became saving angel.
When at home, I tried
-could not think, unable.
I cannot concentrate!
-deep in heart and in mind
-feel pain and disrespect!
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem