Battle Inside Of Me Poem by ESPN CHICK

Every day when I'm around people I fake the smiles
The nights are getting more lonely every night
Deep down I'm hurting
I've built up a wall around me

Things are still the same
I still hate what I see in the mirror
I thrive for more scars but sometimes I fight them away
Crying in my mind because I know I'm forever alone

Alone to feel this pain
Alone to face these fears
I still try to drown out the pain
Still try to pick up the pieces of me

This life isn't what I hoped it would be
I thought I would be more than this
Thought there would be more to me
Was hoping by now I wouldn't be alone

The pain, I was hoping that I washed it all away
Nothing seems to ease my soul
The only time I feel real is when I'm alone
When I'm alseep I feel alive

I guess you can say that my dreams are my therapy
Because no matter what I can be myself
I don't have to hide
I have somebody by my side

I don't know what more to say
I'm fighting this battle inside
And I swear that I'm losing
Feels like a tornado keeps ripping through me

And I'm stuck out here in the middle of nowhere
Wondering if anyone hears my screams
If anyone sees through these eyes of mine
I know nobody will ever notice me

I'm trying so hard to be strong
Trying hard not to give in
I'm fighting this battle inside of me to live another day, to breathe one more breath or two, to cry a tear or two
But if for some reason I lose this battle inside at least I know I fought to the end


Aug 29 2010