Before I Had My Pride Poem by Donald R Wolff JR

Sometimes your fragrance reminds me-
of a dream I had in life
Put aside for a lonely feeling-
that bothers me at night
It's such a funny thing-
when I hear you in my mind
I don't understand the suffering-
for a love no longer mine

Maybe you can come back home-
and forget about my lies
Not that I desire you-
I no longer want to cry
I know that I hurt you-
without a reason why
A man must have his dignity-
when sleeping with his pride

The softness of a guilty feeling-
while cheating on a wife
Makes the chance of losing-
a risk not on my mind
It's not that I don't love you-
It's the new that breaks the line
So not worth the loneliness-
when I'm sleeping with my pride

A cheating heart can find a way-
to justify a lie
With more reasoning than logic-
to show off many times
One more beer to forget-
while I take that lustful ride
The joyfulness of loving you-
was wasted for my pride

That feeling inside my heart-
when tears fell from your eyes
I cannot explain the hurt I felt-
when you asked me, 'darling, why'
My anger that left you alone-
all those many times
Was the anger in my loathing self-
while keeping all my pride

There have been many times I think of you-
in the silence of the day
I talk about you with my friends-
while pretending I'm OK
Really, I am broken up-
for reasons I can't say
Who would think a little heart-
can break a man this way

I hope someday when I see you;
You will understand my pride
It is the thing that keeps me from asking-
for a new chance at our life
Now, forever has ended, dear-
we both know the reasons why
You look as I remember-
before I had my pride

(08/12/2015)