Beginning Love Poem by Megan Anderton

By Megan Anderton
(Authors note: i was born with a Bi lateral cliff pallet)


Baby I hate you, baby I love you…. Its like you came out of my inner word, to my real world….
How is this…. I saw you last night in my dreams…. Now I see u in on my day, in class in the same
Position…. I only see you…. I feel closed in…. your looking down at your shoes…
You look all alone…… like your standing in a empty parking lot, broken down shops….
I’m not giving you any grief, I’m just watching you from the moon….

You don’t even know I’m standing a mile from you….
all I know is I could be invisible to your eyes even though I‘m every where…..
No surprise, I am with everyone else…. Im like nothing….I watch everything from the moon….
No way of joining….. Because I’m not invited….
In reality its no more than just life….

I’m like a clown, that everyone’s, laughs at, throws pies at, kids are afraid of at first sight…..
Babies cry….. Scientists want to do lab work on…..
But I’m not really. No where near… people painted over the real me….
Ignoring the fact that I live, feelings, and have a heart…..
I may look different, but not far off…..

Baby I hate you, baby I love you…. You make me go insane at times of destruction…..
You make my world go round and round….. Faster than anything any ones seen or felt…..
You know the whispers passwords of my heart, how did you come by this when I don’t even know you….
Were two strangers on the face of the earth, meeting paths….for the first time in, no one knows how long….
Not even me…. But you seem so familiar… like I met you in the passing….

You don’t even know the affect you have on me…your like a beautiful ocean view….
You make everything around me still, you take my breath away, you amaze me…..
You make me beautiful, at peace, most of all I can be myself….
Leaving me speechless….. Your just perfect for me…. Your all I want or need…
don’t change a thing….. You’re the perfect painting…

The only problem is your not mine, or in my life…… your just a statue I see with everything else…..
You’re the god of the seas…. You have to accept me on your own not by force…..
I throw something past you, thankfully it misses….. One of the neighbors gets your attention for me….
Telling you the clown of ugliness wants you…. You look up at me… with no pain or grief….
You look at me as if you see me…. You look at your nieghbor l with horror…..
You look back at me with curiosity, wondering why im there, not down here……

Please don’t have second thoughts, of me… look into my blue, brown world…
What do you see…. Do you see a monster….. A harmful acid….
Or a hurt darkened beautiful earth….with nothing to care for her….
It feels like we were in another world, for years….with peace, and quiet, not a care who was around us…. you give me the sexy wave look….
Which makes me dropp my mouth to the ground…. Trying hard to stay serious…..
Someone snaps me out of the gaze…. Telling me I wasn’t allowed to look at you…..
I laugh hysterically…. Because of your look, and with joy….

You didn’t see me, as everyone else did….you saw someone chained to the moon…..
thank you my love, I know you may ignore what happened between us today….
thank you, for seeing me for me…. I love you, that’s all I can give you…
You brought my heart back to life, into the light…..
Maybe some day you’ll take me down from the moon. I will be waiting…. I will wait forever if I have too…. thank you ……..

Poem written: January 5th,2007