Blank Canvas Poem by nicky joyce

Blank canvas staring at me
Painting it with tears shed
Nobody knows but me
Sometimes I try but still nothing to see
I want to pick up the colours
But nothing but tears seem to be
Nobody seems to care nobody but me
Screaming in my head and in my heart to
Wanting to walk away feeling broken and blue
Confused with everything and not knowing
Words said in message but still not working
Read it once and twice and more
How is it possible hell my hearts hanging what more
I fought once then it was gone
Now the feelings coming back yet I`m too far gone
I stick with it cause it`s what I want
Now sitting here writing this tears falling again
How is this possible why oh why me
Worlds apart and distance between
God I`m hurting not just from pain but from being me
Shall I walk away and leave it un knowing
Or stick with it and see what could happen
Head or heart what do I do
Someone help me please just take away these blues.