Can I Take That Chance Again? Poem by Kevin Carney

Can I take that chance again…?
To see you slowly slip away.
All I ask is that you look at me.
So much we’ve been through.
I have tried to rescue you, only to see you slip away.
Can I be that stupid?
To keep doing this, only to see you walk away.
It’s been such a struggle in my mind.
Look at me for once; tell me what you really think.
See me for what I really am.
I wish I could walk away, its just not so…
Tell me something I will maybe believe.
So afraid I have been to see it all for what it is.
I feel like I am a crutch to you.
So safe you come running when it all falls apart.
There are no rules for you and me…
Your image burned into my mind.
So beautiful, so soft and yet so hard.
It’s almost as an entity that haunts.
I can’t see the change of it all.
Show me how this can continue?
It’s such an unfinished story….
I don’t think it will ever end.
The words are still unfinished…
The pages never turned.
The ending, you’ll the only one who will see.
You see me how you want to see…
Even that you don’t understand.
You don’t look beyond…
Never to see the frailty, you instill in me.
You think I am so strong, never to break….
Never have you seen that I can be so fragile…
It only happens with your involved.
So unsure, I just need to take a deep breathe.
Only to hope that I am still there.
I never know what you’ll bring with the next fleeting day.
So addicted I’ve become.
I think I know why, yet I am still so unsure.
You know I just can't quite say for sure, if I try...
The explanation would boggle ones mind.
I feel at time that I have been walking in such deep sleep.
The voice of yours, slowly hooking my soul...
Even if I wanted I don’t think I could wake up.
It’s the dream you’ve created…