Cupid Laid In My Arms And Cried... Poem by Mousheera Shafik

In my darkened room,
I laid so tired on my bed,
Seeing my fatal doom,
And neither am I alive, nor dead.
Actually I played my favorite song,
And in my pain I think, and do think
I kept playing it all the night long,
I couldn't find rest, or even sleep a wink.
The song was expressing the way I feel,
But it did not tell me how I am going to deal,
How to deal with this massive pain,
A pain that left in my heart a wide stain,
It's not a stain of hatred or grudge,
It's indefinable, but it doesn't budge..
The song was sang by Shania twain…
I kept playing it again and again,
Still laying and chafing on that bed, I am,
This overwhelming pain still, I can not dam,
Then I found Cupid bumping in my window,
He got in my room, and he had the saddest eyes..
He fell on the ground,
He was bleeding,
His wings were bound,
and to sleep in my arms, he left up my elbow,
at once, so wide, I opened my arms…
he was crying so hard,
and I wondered..
'Cupid, … why aren't your wings flying? ' I asked
'Cupid, … where is your bow, and love darts? ' I wondered
'Cupid, … why are you crying? ' I asked
'Cupid, … um the one who is hurt! ! ' I wondered
he answered with a stifled voice..
'My wings, aren't flying because they are wounded.'…,
'My bow and darts are broken.'…, he added
'Um crying because um frightened.'…, he said
I remained silent,
and in my silence I've spoken all the possible words..
as sighs and tears, have already became my language,
since my deep within is cut into pieces with a thousand swords,
and nothing left to myself but, bitter and anguish.
With his small delicate hand he handled my teary cheek,
Wiping my tears, and calming me, as I went so peak,
He told me;
'I lived by your mutual whispers of love…,
now these whispers have banished,
I loved your both giggles that flied with me in the air…,
now these giggles are nothing but tears,
Oh, oh no this can't be happening, I've never seen so much love like you two have given,
I don’t believe and I even can't,
your both feelings made birds fly and chant..
they are now so gloom, they are weak and gaunt,
you both went beyond the word worship,
the word love was meaningless to what you both had,
beyond love,
beyond passion,
you created a whole brand new feeling,
you both have been like two shimmering stars, above so high,
you've been a sign to all lovers that may ever guide,
and now how am I supposed to bear seeing this love die?
What can I do to make you both in each hearts abide?
Remember? ? , … you always were over the moon,
That you left any couples no place at all,
This space was your both love boon,
Why did you let this place crash and fall? ! !
Not only you are suffering, but so does he,
You know so well how much he loved you,
You know so well how much he cared,
…… I just don't know what to say? ,
…… I just don't know what to do? ... ' I interrupted him,
I put my fingers upon his lips and gently shushed him,
'hush…., ' I smoothly said
'did you love us that much? ? ! ! ' I wondered..
'you know so well that um keeping my promise,
and I promised him to keep his love for a life time,
that's why I'll keep on waiting, I do have faith,
I have faith in him,
And he loves me, I know
And I love him, I do
And the more older I grow,
The more he is safer in my heart,
I'd keep him in my heart forever,
Even if we won't get together,
But you know Cupid so well,
How much I love him, and how more I will
Cease your tears Cupid, there is no need to cry,
It's just a matter of time,
I know that our love is like a growing baby,
So tenuous but, still… It is so strong to die,
It just keeps on growing deep inside, so in, and in,
I feel Like a mother that has her child within,
A creature that is so alive,
It moves and grows,
Within me I'd keep it safe and sound,
I'd make it grow,
I'd make it glow,
Even if my love feels me only as a friend,
Um telling you again,
It's a question of when,
And it's not the end,
Cupid, cease your tears and sleep,
There is no need to weep..
Lie safe in my arms and dream,
Breath deeply and feel that beam,
It's the beam of hope that I do see,
Help me up, and see it with me,
Sleep Cupid and don't be afraid
Cupid, lay in my arms, but don't cry,
I promise that this love isn't going to die
Sleep Cupid, sleep
And there is no need to weep'… I said

We laid together listening to the song
And it kept playing all the night long
I kept awake watching that angel in my arms,
Till I saw him opening his wide innocent eyes,
He filled me with so much hope…
I kept looking at him for a while,
And then I stood up,
I started to treat his wounded wings,
We laughed and spoke about merry things,
I brought his bow and darts to get them mended,
And my smiles and his were flying and blended,
Then I pat his head and kissed his loft,
The sweetest skin he had, it was so soft,

'good bye Cupid, I hope you'd come again,
and lay in my arms with love, not in pain,
next time you'd sleep in both arms of mine and my love,
sooner or later, it's a thing that um sure of'…I said

He gazed so long at my shining eyes;
And then, he kissed me kisses good byes,
and his wings started to fly,
he merrily flapped his wings,
and gave me the sweetest breeze,
that blew over my hair,
I felt so beautiful, I felt so fair,
And that white velvet dress of mine,
Started to flutter in the air,
the sun raised up,
and I heard the little birdie tweeting and singing,
he is singing me the song of hope,
a great sentimental sonata,
filled me with faith
filled me with hope, …
and I kept repeating to myself;
'his eyes and mine are not to cry,
this tremendous love is not to die..'
I hope…
And I pray…