Deep Confession Poem by Laura arwen

I want to
smile every day
Often I feel
confused on what
I'm feeling
I need to
be perfectly organized
because I don't
want to waste
my time
There's nothing better
being in silence
and hear the
rain comes down
Often I don't
feel important and
special
SometimesI feel
an absurd mental
cage
I'm so terrified
to lose my
imagination or to
not have time
My only loyal
company are dreams
But dreaming is
a great distraction
from important activity
Everyday I fight
with my mind
I want to
have an invisible
touch
I feel very
anxious and uncomfortable
if I don't
write every day
I'm a bit
crazy and maniac
on wanting the
perfect order
I need more
cloudy and rainy
days
If I have
less material things
and everything organized
I don't feel
confused or lost
It's a pleasure
to have everything
clean