Depression Poem by zion anisius

The night is my getaway from the daylight chaos, but one thing follows me deeper into the night and that is the feeling of numbness and depression.

With eyes stuck in the moment I drown in my beautifully broken thoughts just to find answers to thousands of questions beneath this soul.

I can hear my own heartbeat like a drum through the silence of the night.
I want somebody to hold my hand and say that everything will be alright, but looking back into the moment, it is just me, only me and what surrounds me is not any person, it's pitch black darkness.

It feels very heavy on my weary heart. It's been stabbed many a times, it's been stitched many a times, but how can I stop the pain that flows within me?

Every time I stand up to walk one step ahead leaving all these behind, I go one step behind crashing against the chaotic world.
My eyes have run dry; I am fed up of all this and tonight my heart aren't at rest, even if I am to convince it.

It hurts a lot, deeper than the scars on my wrists.
I want to go away, away and away, but where? I don't know. I am soul stuck in-between life and death wearing a smile to fake it all off. Hold on to me, cause I am little unsteady.

Can I just run away?