Despair Poem by Ronald Chapman

I feel sorrowful,
Darkness makes me ill,
I feel miserable, depressed,
My heart is drenched in soju tears.

Hunger rips at my foundations,
I feel tired,
Anger is dragging me down to the depths of misery,
I want to die!

Is it because of being alone for so long?
With the blue rays of despair, raining down on my Soul?
Or am I lost in a tale of Hwang Jini, adrift far from my home,
A foreigner missing his Seoul,
I don't know?

Kyung Mi, I miss you, my wife,
Kyung Mi I miss you, my love,
Kyung Mi I miss you my best friend,
I was getting better but then,
Thoughts of never seeing Kyung Mi broke my heart again,

I feel brokenhearted,
Cold nights chill the flesh on my empty hands,
I feel downcast,
An outcast, living far from home, Missing his Seoul,
Feeling crushed my only purpose.

I feel miserable,
Death is doing its best to take my Soul,
I want this to end!

Is it because of being alone that I feel this way?
With the blue rays of despair, drenching my heart?
Am I lost in a story of Hwang Jini, adrift far from home and alone,
I don't know?

Kyung Mi missing my one true love,
Kyung Mi missing your beauty,
Oh God, Kyung Mi missing your kindness,
I was getting better but then memories of you,
Thoughts of never seeing Kyung Mi broke my heart again,

Oh! God! Take me back home.