Diary Poem by Laura arwen

Oppression is invincible
Eternal life is
my greatest desires
I'm stifled by
indecision and
by lies
I'm very weak
so I need
more solitude
I can't ask
an help because
I receive only
insults
I want the
totally abandon
I need more
self-control
Sometimes I want
to build a
strong wall around
me
I fear the
pain and the
true suffering
Sometimes I think
to be soulless
Sometimes I am
ashamed to be
virgin because I
really need sex
Hard times are
coming
Bothers me not
to have the
schedule and not
respect it when
I prefix
There's something wrong
in me but
I don't know
which it is
Sometimes I feel
like an angel
of destruction and
and angel of
death
Sometimes I think
that is not
a good idea
to change