Dirge I Poem by Mousheera Shafik

Father.. I've always needed you,
But ever I knew never that I did…
I tried so hard too feel you,
Too late it is, you are lying dead.

I've always knew you are my safety,
Even though I could not talk to you.
I thought you'd be there for infinity,
But I realized that there must be some woe.

I know that we were always so far,
But later, I knew that you tried to get me close to you.

Forgive me if I did not cry in your arms,
I thought then, that you have so much to do.

You tried to please me with all possible ways,
And still I was running away from you.

How did we ever get this far?
How could I deem you my foe?

You disciplined me hard then to get me a better person,
And I thought that you were just trying to make me blue.
But now you are so far away and will never come back,
And um afraid to face it alone, um afraid to screw.

Yeah, … I remember all the things you taught me,
Fruitful in my heart and nourishe my soul like a yew.
I will keep this virtue deep within me,
I will hold on to every thing from you I knew.
I will break away from my fears,
Starting a life that will be so brand new.

Forgive me if um shaking,
I just can not take my breath,
Um working on breaking,
Breaking away from the calamity of your death.

Papa I will miss you, I will really do…
Papa I will always, always pray for you…