Do I Listen To My Head? Or Follow My Heart? Poem by Angel Smith

The pain you have caused, all the secrets the lies,
How can you keep smiling when I look into your eyes,
The horror, the anguish I cant believe it was you,
When I finally found out I couldn’t believe it was true.
You started with a kiss but didn’t stop there,
And now that I know its so hard to bare,
I still have that feeling that you somehow lost,
You know that word that used to explain the two of us,
So now I m alone and with no one to trust,
While you sit in her house surrounded by lust.
I look into the mirror and all I see is my mistakes,
You do the same and only see a face.
Now what I do I cant decide,
You have left me ripped and torn up inside,
I m so confused and don’t know what to do,
I feel so used I cant even hug you.
You wonder why we cant be friends,
My hearts been broken and cant seem to mend.
You say its still there that its not completely gone,
But how can that be if it feels so wrong.
Love Is a strange thing and cant be controlled,
Its not just some clay that you can play with and mould.
I know we weren’t perfect like you see on TV,
But we loved each other and we as happy as could be.
Now I m back to the same question that made this poem start,
Do I listen to my head, or follow my heart?