Does He Actually Hate Me.? Poem by Dee RAAIN

My dear friend,
everytime i see you at work
I wonder what you would say to me next..? ?

Because everytime i see you....

You make me angry.
You make me cry.
You make me nervous.
You make me shy.
You make happy.
You make me laugh.
Then you make me like you even more as the person you are.

You change all the time.
&& even once every blue moon.
You say the most random things.
and in my mind, i am so confused.
I wander if you like me,
Then i wander if it's just hate.
I just need to know how you feel, i can't wait.

My dear friend
I don't know what your trying to express.
But then you ignore me,
and then you ask me if i'm alright.
How can i know if your my best friend or so.
My heart feels like it's going to burst as it's so tight.

Because deep within me,
I hate you so much.
Because of, just your touch..? ?
But then you smile and that makes me, 'me'.
I need to know, so i can be free.
But you know you have a girlfriend.
&& suprisingly she's my friend.
And know it's hard to let your inner feelings pass.
But just know that i only ask.

But Dear friend what are you doing.
I really want to know - what you're going to say next.
because deep down inside.
As a friend.
I feel like i'm just nothing not even second best.