You Could Never Wish. Poem by Dee RAAIN

A psychologist asked me during a councilling session:

What are you feeling and how are feeling..? ?
And how could you wish to change these feelings..? ?
Is there anyway i can help you to change them..? ?

In reply i said:

Well Dr. here's what i have to say from my heart to you..

♥ You could never wish that a part of me.
Want's to die and cry in sorrow, never to be free.
Hurting until the day after tommorow.
Care nothing more, than to sorrow.
Feel pain and be comforted by nothing more than fear.
You can never wish that your life would be so much in full of depression.
Now i wish i could have my life been taken not speared.....: (♥
My psychological mind you won't be able to change,
Bad enough i can't even bear.........

Psychologist in reply:

Wow..! ! I did'nt know you were so much in full depth. i didn't think you were that suicidal to how much feelings were in you negatively. I may not be able to make you change permanently, but i can support you through what's going on. That's what i am here for.

In reply i said: Well doctor i know that i have tried so many times to take my life, i just don't know if i'm ready to keep living...

Beacuse......

My heart has been broken so many times.
It just really hurts to see that i have to hide behind.
Hide behind a smile, that doesn't even compare to sadness.
For once when i was a child, i was full of gladness.
Now that think about it I also had fallen in love once.
But he has gone now, and that's taken away from me.
And all these feelings inside can not be set free.

Psychologist: Well i see so much in your life, has to be the fact you've been hurt so much by being in love and being hurt and seems it's friends and family involvement. i think there is more to life than being burden with doubts and all. You can get through this for sure.

In reply: Well Doctor, i see that you can understand, but in reality i think there is more to life. But atm i am not consistently agreeing with it. In terms to being hurt, my feelings are and will always be compacted in fear and sadness. That's what i agree with now.

Because really doctor..! !
You could never wish...
You would want to be in my shoes.

Psychologist: That's true..! ! i could never wish........

This maybe sort of random guys..! ! but it's not all entirely true.
Just a poem that's all. some of it's true, not based on me though.
Please comment on it. thanks. Be truthful please. I know it's different.
Just want to see on opinions. :)